Second Trimester

I can't believe the second trimester is already coming to an end! Time is flying by!
This trimester has been so much fun feeling Waylon move and kick and finding out the gender and watching my belly really grow!
These last few weeks have been a little more rough because insomnia and heartburn have kicked in. The insomnia isn't too bad, it happens every 3-4 nights, and I've had heartburn just a handful of times.
My Baby Shower is next month and I can't wait! Because I don't live near my family, and none of my friends offered to plan the shower for me, I was planning it myself. Which I was fine with, I understood that my circumstances were different, so as soon as I found out the gender I got to work on planning the shower and making invitations.
Early April, my visiting teacher came over one morning to share that months lesson with me and when she got to my house realized that she had already shared the lesson with me. So she stayed for a bit to visit with me, and we somehow got on the topic of my shower. She found out that I was planning it myself, and immediately offered to plan the whole thing for me. I wanted to cry! She has completely taken over planning my shower, which took a huge weight off my shoulders. I really appreciated that she reached out to help me with this task because my family wasn't here to help.
I'm so grateful for the Relief Society in our church and for visiting teachers who listen to the spirit.

Cameron is just a few weeks away from finishing Power School! His parents are coming down for the graduation and we are super excited to see them and show them around the Charleston area. :)
Cameron starts Prototype next, which is 6 months long, and it's the last part of his schooling here in SC. Once he finishes Prototype, we will be stationed somewhere else. We're hoping for Bangor, Washington or San Diego, California. We really want to be back on the West Coast. The East Coast has been a fun experience, but we really miss being on the West Coast, and being closer to family.

The second trimester has been amazing and I'm so excited to be starting my third trimester and be that much closer to meeting our precious baby boy!

IT'S A BOY!!

Today we found out the gender of our sweet little baby!! Luckily, the day went by fast because our appointment wasn't until 3:45 pm. They did my check-up first and used the Doppler to hear the baby's heartbeat. I told my Dr. that the kicks were getting pretty strong and that Cameron had been able to feel them. She was surprised and said we had a very strong baby :)
After that we got to go in the ultrasound room to try and find out the gender. The whole pregnancy I've thought that we were having a girl, so I was expecting to hear that it was a girl. The baby was face down most of the time, so we had a hard time getting a good look at the booty to see if it was a boy or girl. The ultrasound tech had me lay on my right side, then on my left side trying to get the baby to turn around. The baby was moving a lot, just not into any positions that would allow us to see the booty. I was watching the screen intently, but I kinda zoned out for a second and the ultrasound tech said "Well, it looks like a boy to me!" I instantly focused and said "Really?!" haha She got a picture of the area and confirmed that it was a boy!! I was completely surprised, but extremely excited!! The whole rest of the day I kept walking around the house saying "WE'RE HAVING A BOY!!" It's so surreal!
Now that we know it's a boy, it's become so much more real! I didn't know that I could love this little baby any more, but today I had a deeper love for this little man coming into our lives! Cameron and I are beyond excited for this opportunity to be parents to this incredible little boy :)

Waylon Davis Flewellen

Baby Kicks

 Today started out very easy going. Cameron went in to study for a test he has coming up on Monday, and I was home cleaning and getting ready for the day. It was a beautiful day outside and some of Cameron's classmates were going to go hit some golf balls at the golf course on base and they invited us to come. So we went to Goodwill and got some cheap golf clubs and met up with his classmates.
 While we were out there I could feel the baby moving around and kicking. I've noticed in the last few days that the kicks had been getting harder and I was hoping that they might be hard enough for Cameron to feel.
 We came home and we were relaxing on the couch. Cameron was doing some genealogy work and I was watching Ice Skating. I felt the baby kick and put my hand on my belly to see if I could feel it on the outside too. I felt a small kick, so I quickly grabbed Cameron's hand and put it on my belly. He held his hand there for a moment and then.. THUMP..THUMP........THUMP!! Cameron wasn't sure he felt the first one but he definitely felt the other two.
 Seeing the excitement and surprise on his face made the perfect ending to a perfect day. That was such a special moment and I'm so grateful the baby was willing to give daddy some good kicks and give us that tender family moment.

We find out the gender on March 9th and we are so excited we can hardly stand it!!!We do have our names picked out. If it's a girl, she will be Kori Sandra Kay Flewellen, in honor of Cameron's mom, Sandra Kay Flewellen, who passed away. And if it's a boy, he'll be Waylon Davis Flewellen. We can't wait to put a name with the baby and start getting all the fun girl or boy stuff!!

Georgia Trip

 Today was a very fun day! Cameron planned for us to spend most of the day in Atlanta Georgia for Valentines! We left early in the morning because it was a 4-4.5 hour drive!
 First, we went to the Georgia Aquarium! It was one of the coolest aquariums I've been to. There were about 5 exhibits to check out. We got to see some interesting creatures like the Spider Crab, the Sea Dragon, Garden Eels and more. We also got to see otters, penguins, crocodiles, whales and jellyfish.
 The coolest exhibit that Cameron and I both loved was the Ocean Voyager. You enter a tunnel that is a part of the fish tank. So all around you, you see Stingrays, Manta rays, Whale Sharks, Groupers and many more. Then you enter a room with a small area for sitting, with a 30 ft wall of all the animals in the exhibit. We got to see some of the workers feed the Whale Sharks, and there was a Manta Ray that keep dong back flips.

After that, we visited the Coca-Cola Factory. It was really cool to see all the history from Coca-Cola over the years. One of the galleries that we walked through had a small glass case that held torches used in the Olympics because Coca-Cola is a big sponsor of the Olympics. They had told us that if we asked someone, we could hold one of the torches. So we asked one of the workers and they let us hold the torch used in the 2012 London Olympics. It was really cool! We went through a couple more galleries and an area that showed you how they bottled the soda into the glass bottles.
 The last area you go through is the Taste It area, where you can taste soda flavors from all around the world. They had these pillars that read North America, South America, Europe and Asia. They had some very interesting flavors and some truly awful flavors. One that we thought was the worst was called the Beverly from Italy. It tasted like unflavored carbonated cough syrup. It was really bad.
 On your way out they let you take a glass bottled Coke off the conveyer belt as a souvenir.
 After that we headed home. It was an awesome day that we wont forget.

The First Trimester

The first Trimester was a roller coaster for me at the beginning. Right at 6 weeks, I started getting nauseated and threw up only a couple times. A week later, the nausea stopped, but I still threw up occasionally.
 At week 9 I got a cold, which was NOT fun! Being in the first trimester, you don't really get to take medication. Mostly Ricolla cough drops, juice, and lots of rest.
After that passed, I was doing much better. I only lost 2 lbs., which is really good for the first trimester. The last few weeks of the first trimester my hips started getting REALLY sore feeling. They hurt all day every day. Sleeping was a nightmare because I was constantly tossing and turning from one sore hip to the next.
We have a memory foam topper that was on our guest bed that we moved to our bed, which has helped a lot! I've also started doing stretches with my yoga ball, and that has relieved a lot of the pain.

We are beyond excited to be in the second trimester and getting closer to finding out the gender!!
We can't wait to meet our precious little baby!

Baby Flewellen On the Way!

A week ago I was supposed to start my period, but it never came. I started to have an upset tummy last Tuesday and it would last all day long! A few days later I noticed my boobs were hurting really bad. So I figured I was pregnant but I wanted to wait a week after my cycle was supposed to start to take a test. 

So this morning as Cameron was getting ready for work. I snuck into the guest bathroom and took the test. It was positive! After Cameron left for work I went to my doctor to confirm it. It didn't take long for them to confirm I was pregnant. 

They estimated that I am 5 weeks and 2 days pregnant, and due around July 25th, 2015!

 I told Cameron when he got home. I had my positive test taped to a pink and blue balloon, which was tied to a tool box that was labeled Daddy's Diaper Changing Tool Box. I filled the box with diapers, a rubber ducky, baby powder and lotion, and a onsie that said I Love Daddy. 

I'm beyond grateful to be able to carry this precious baby of ours! And it couldn't have come at a better time with Thanksgiving in just a couple days.

 

Here is the video of my telling Cameron :)

 

Staycation

Since Cameron graduated A school, he get 10 days of leave (time off). So we've been doing the tourist stuff!

Last Saturday we went and visited Fort Sumter and Patriots Point.
Patriots Point has a sub, a destroyer and an aircraft carrier that visitors are allowed to go tour. Cameron went once with his class at the beginning of A school, and when we went on Saturday, he was able to tell me what a lot of the stuff was in he Engine Room. It was really cool to see all those things up close, but I would never want to work on a sub or an aircraft carrier! I'm not claustrophobic, but I was getting uncomfortable with how small some of the stairways and walkways were!
The sub we went on was very very old, and the subs today are much bigger.
Fort Sumter was awesome! It was fun walking around and seeing the history that was there. There were bullets still in some of the walls! it was crazy!

Fort Sumter used to be as tall as the flag just above my hand

Yesterday, we got to go to Carowinds!

Carowinds is an amusement park here in South Carolina. What's really cool about the park is that half of the park is in South Carolina, and the other half is in North Carolina!

We had a blast! It was our first time go on a roller coaster together :)

We rode all kinds of roller coasters. There was one where you are laying down, and you go backwards. That one was our favorite! There was also one where you were standing up, another one that had your feet dangling. We also went on one water ride and we didn't get too wet, but it was a lot of fun because the ladies that were with us had us laughing the whole time!

 We also enjoyed a yummy funnel cake with chocolate syrup, carmel syrup, strawberries with sauce, powdered sugar and whip cream! YUM!

But what really made the day enjoyable was Cameron. If we went on a roller coaster that wasn't as crazy or intense, he still managed to make it fun. He would scream and yell like it was intense and it made me laugh the entire time! 

It was the first night of Scarowinds for Halloween, so we decided to stay for that. For those who don't know, I don't like scary stuff! I don't like getting scared, I don't like scary things, I don't like it! If I watch a scary movie, I have to watch a Disney movie afterwards so I wont have nightmares!

So, we went to Scarowinds, and I told myself that I could handle it and that it wouldn't be that bad, and to suck it up because Cameron really wanted to do Scarowinds. We went through our first Haunted House called Last Laff, and it was freaky. You could pretty much tell who was real and who wasn't. I got scared but I thought I handled it pretty well. I didn't like it, but I did it. Then we start heading towards a haunted house called 7th Ward. I then realized we would be going through haunted houses all night and I wasn't ok with that. We got through the line and I teared up a little because I was getting scared. Cameron suggested that we could leave but I told him I wanted to be tough and do it. Then we started walking up to the door of haunted house and I lost it. I grabbed Cameron's arm and said as I was frantically crying' I don't want to go in, I don't want to do this, I don't want to do this.' He felt really bad that it scared me, and I felt horrible that I was scared of everything. So we decided to go home. I felt horrible but Cameron comforted me and made me not feel as bad.

This staycation has been the best!

We also got to go to the Columbia, South Carolina Temple on Wednesday. We always enjoy going to the Temple :) 

A School Graduation

On September 19, 2014, my husband graduated A school, and because he had the 3rd highest GPA in his class, he graduated with Distinction.

I'm so proud of him for getting through the first part of his schooling! Even though it's nice that he doesn't get to bring his homework home, he still has to make sure he gets it done in the time that he is given, along with studying. There were weekends that he would have to go in for 2-3 hours on Saturdays and Sundays.

His schedule for A school was Mon-Fri, he would leave between 5:45-6, and he wouldn't get home until 6 pm, then be in bed by 9. Sometimes he wouldn't get home until 8. Plus studying on the weekends. Most Fridays he would get off early, which we looked forward to every week. 

I also had to have a schedule while he was in A School. Mondays I needed to have laundry done so he would have his PT (Physical Training) clothes ready for Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday; eventually it was just on Wednesdays. Then Thursday nights we had to get his dress white uniform ready for Friday. Every 2 weeks we had to cut his hair to make sure it was within standards. I made breakfast and lunch for him everyday so he wouldn't have to get up as early, and every night I made sure dinner was ready when he got home so we would have more time to spend together.

I'm very excited for him to be done with A school! He will be starting Power School in November, and until then he will be on T-Track, which is basically doing work on base, like Watch( making sure people who go in to study are students and not civilians), cleaning, etc. 

I've heard from the other wives that Power School will require Cameron to be gone more, and his schooling will be more intense and more in depth, so I'm going to do what I can to help lighten his load so he doesn't stress out. He's so excited to learn more in Power School and to continue his education in the Nuclear field, and I love seeing how excited he gets about it.

I'm so proud of my honey! :)

South Carolina

We have been living in South Carolina for a little over 3 months now. At first it rained a lot and we LOVED it! It hasn't been raining as much lately. A couple weeks ago, there were a few days when it was kinda chilly outside, but it's been in the high to mid 80's and beautiful!

We've been able to go to the beach quite a bit, and let me tell you, we are loving every minute of that!

There is so much GREEN here! I don't think I've really seen gravel anywhere except on dirt paths. There are big green trees, some with moss on them. There are so many squirrels here, it's insane!

Cameron graduates A school next Friday. I'm excited that he's finished with this first part of his schooling, but the next couple parts are gonna make his schedule crazy.

We've made lots of friends, and we have BBQ's almost every weekend :)

It's been interesting getting used to the new terminology, and I feel like Cameron speaks another language sometimes with all of it. I'm even learning about it while he's sleeping. There's been a couple times when he's fallen asleep before me, and he will start talking in his sleep about torque, turbines, folding things and anything else he may have learned that day. I just laugh, go along with it, write it down and tell him about it in the morning and we get a good laugh out of it.

In our ward we are Primary teachers to a cute CTR 4 class. We have 4-5 kids that consistently come every week, and they make us laugh each week with the things they'll say. But it's amazing to see them learn a new concept and to help them understand Heavenly Fathers teachings.
This last Sunday was Fast Sunday, and the kids get Tootsie Rolls from the Primary Presidency if they are good during sharing time. The teachers hold onto them until they get to class. We'll, our kids wanted their Tootsie Rolls real bad. But we explained that we were fasting, and we encouraged the kids to fast for the class hour and not eat their Tootsie Rolls. And they did it! They were so proud of themselves! It was awesome to see them do that.

We are loving every minute of being here. I can't wait to see what the other seasons are gonna be like :)

Move to South Carolina

Welp! We have officially moved to South Carolina! We left AZ June 5th and got to SC 3 days later. The driving wasn't too bad, it was just kinda noisy in the cab of the truck. We got to see such beautiful country on the way there.

Our first night we stayed in Abilene, Texas. We stayed the night with my Great Aunt Elaine and Great Cousin Brandi. Those two are some of my favorite people on this entire planet! Elaine is my grandma's sister, and if anyone knows anything about me, it's that I loved my grandma very VERY much. She was my best friend. She passed away 11 years ago, which was and is very difficult for me. Elaine has always known this and I've had a special connection with Elaine. While we were visiting them, Elaine gave me one of my grandma's crocheted blankets, which was very sweet! Elaine and Brandi are always such a joy to be around. They always keep us laughing and always make sure we are taken care of. I also got to see one of my grandma's brothers while there too.

The next day we drove straight to Mississippi! We stayed in Meridian, Mississippi. On the way there we stopped in West Monroe, Louisiana. Right after entering Louisiana, Cameron moved over to the far left lane and within a second after he did that, there was a 15 car pile up in the lane we had just moved from. One car almost turned into our lane. I'm so grateful that Cameron listened to the spirit and moved out of that lane.
We are Duck Dynasty fans so we stopped by the Duck Commander Warehouse to take pictures and look around. It was really cool. We also passed over the Mississippi River which is HUGE!!

On Sunday, we made it to SC. We stayed in a hotel up the street from where our house was. The housing office wasn't open until the next day so we weren't able to get our keys until the next day.
We finally have everything that we need unpacked, but there are still a lot of boxes to go through.

It's beautiful here! We have been to the beach twice already. It has rained about 5 times since we've been here and there are thousands of squirrels running around everywhere! I love it! And I now know why people say southern hospitality is the best. It really is! Some people are rude, but a lot of businesses we've gone to around here, the employees are so nice and so positive!
Can't wait to see more of the South!

Answered Prayers

Well, tonight was interesting to say the least. At about 9:20 pm. I was laying in bed, and Daisy was on her bed, ready to go to sleep. My mom knocks on my door. I throw on my pink robe and open the door. She asked me of I had seen Zoey. I said I had seen her not too long ago. I see the panic in her face and head down stairs with Daisy to look around the house. We quickly find that she is not anywhere in the house or backyard. I start heading outside to check for her and I see our neighbors, the Jacobs, start getting in their car to look for her.
I quickly go change out of my pink robe and put Daisy on a leash and go look for Zoey. After I've looked down 3-4 streets I felt the need to go down another street, I thought to myself 'someone probably already looked down this street, but I can see our neighbors car at a park nearby so I'll head towards them'. Soon after making the decision I see a lady walking down the street toward me, and I again think to myself 'I should ask her if she's seen a black schnauzer'. As I was about to ask her, she asks me 'Are you looking for a dog?' I was like yea, I am. She asked if I was looking for a schnauzer and I said yes. She asked if I lived on the corner nearby. We were about 5-6 streets away from my house and I told her where we lived. She then told me that she knew a neighbor with a black schnauzer and was wondering if it was them looking for one. I then told her that it was hectic trying to find her cause she didn't have a collar.
Then the lady said she saw a facebook post about an hour ago that said someone in Sossamon Estates found a black schnauzer. She pulled up the post on her phone and there were pictures with the post, and they were pictures of Zoey!! The was a number with the post so I called the number and I told the lady on the phone we were missing a schnauzer. She asked if it was a boy or girl. I said a girl and she answers to Zoey. I found out that they are located 4 houses down from ours and she had Zoey for about an hour! I called my mom, dad and brother and my dad rushed over to get her.
My mom said she pulled over in her car twice to pray that she would be found.
It's incredible how the spirit works through us! My testimony has grown through this experience! So grateful that Zoey was taken care of and I'm grateful for Heavenly Father's guidance. And I'm especially grateful that I listened to the Holy Ghost!

Gilbert Temple Cultural Celebration

Tonight Cameron and I had the opportunity to watch the cultural celebration. It was amazing to see over 12,000 teenagers perform all different kinds of dances. Many dances were centered around Indians, Mexicans, Samoan, as well as western theme dances. We watched a young women from our ward perform a song with some other girls. Her name is Belle Lyon. She is the choir director for our ward right now. It was so cool to see the kids we know perform for our Prophet Thomas S. Monson. Camerons younger siblings, Chris, Rachel, and Katie got to be a part of this as well. It was great to be reminded that we are the children of Abraham, as well as listen to the story of the courage Shadrak, Neshak and Abendago. So glad I was able to watch it!

Job at Smith Jr High

In July I was let go from City Accommodations Network, where Cameron also worked. August I had put a post on Facebook saying I needed a job, and my friend Heather Villagomez said she knew a lady she worked with who needed an assistant at Smith Jr High. I interviewed with Cyndi Galvan, and started working with her in September, the week after my niece Brynlee was born.
I have been working here for about 9 weeks and I love it! It is a special needs class and the kids in the class are so much fun to work with. You have good days and bad days but you get through em.
Working there had taught me so much patience!

But those kids have taught me how to love a child. Some of those kids are unaware of their condition, and it's incredible to see the love and happiness they have for everyone around them. I've learned to look on the inside of a person and see who they really are. 

I love working with these kids!

One of the girls is partially deaf, so myself and the two other teachers I work with, have started to learn sign language and I am so excited! I've always loved sign language and I've always wanted to learn it. Now I get to use it everyday. I only know a few words but it's a start. I can ask her if she needs help, thank you, you're welcome, water, yes, no, please, more and bathroom haha those are the most important right now.

ZUMBA

So I recently started doing Zumba which is a fitness class that I go to 3 times a week at Elite Fitness where my mom teaches. We have a blast doing a mix of salsa, merengue, regeaton, cumbia, and many other types of dance. We have a little zumba family and we have a party in every class! I loved it so much that I decided to get my instructor license so I can teach while Cameron and I are in South Carolina. Here are some pics of our class!

Brynlee Mae Parent

My sister and her husband have been married for 5 years and have been trying to have a baby for 3 years. To our surprise, Tasha found out she was pregnant and was already 15 weeks along! On August 27th, 2013 she gave birth to our beautiful niece Brynlee. Tasha and Jimmy couldn't be happier with their beautiful daughter! We are so happy for them and excited for this new joy in our family! Tasha is doing well and is taking in every moment of being a mom! Jimmy is such a good dad and loves to show off his beautiful girl.

The United States Navy

We have told our family and friend but I never put it in my blog so here is the update on the Flewellen crew.

Cameron has made the decision to join the United States Navy, and more specifically will be in the Nuclear Program. Cameron scored so high on his tests that he was qualified to go into the nuclear program to become a Nuclear Engineer. We are both very excited for this opportunity! Although it will be hard to live away from family we are excited and ready for this next step in our lives.

Cameron made the decision to join the Navy for many reasons. One because it was a way for him to be able to go to work and school and know that his family is taken care instead of worrying about paying for school and working enough hours to pay bills. Two, he had the incredible opportunity to become a Nuclear Engineer in 2 years, which I know would have taken longer outside of the Navy. Chandler Gilbert just wasn't a good fit. Don't get me wrong, Cameron excelled in his classes but it felt like he was stuck on a plateau. It was so stressful on him, because his number one concern was his family. Making sure that Daisy and I had food, clothes and a house to live in. He worked so hard and to see him stressed wasn't fun for me. Spending countless hours every weekend doing homework instead spending time with me and his friends. He sacrificed so much. That's why I am extactic to see Cameron join the Navy, and do what he wants to do, and love what he does.

Cameron reports for boot camp March 26th and will be gone for 9 weeks, then we will be stationed in Charleston, South Carolina for the next 2 years :)

Here are some pictures of Cameron taking the oath and signing is contract

2 Year Anniversary

For our second year anniversary Cameron completely surprised me and took me to Carlsbad California! I thought we were going to work that day and he took us straight to California! I was so excited! We stayed across the street from the beach and it was beautiful! We stayed on the beach all day soaking in the sun, boogie boarding in the water and riding our bikes up and down the road next to the beach! I couldn't believe how beautiful it was. Cameron is such an amazing husband and these last 2 years have been the best 2 years of my life! I can't wait to see what the rest of eternity brings us!

Brownie Points

Well, this is gonna be one of those gushy posts so get ready!!
Earlier today I was telling Cameron that I was gonna have a spa night and pamper myself. He later told me he would have a surprise for me when I got home, you can see where this is going...
Well, when I got home from zumba, my sweet husband opened the door for me, took off my socks and shoes, led me to the bathroom were there was a hot bath, flowers, candle burning and country love songs playing... he out did himself and I'm so grateful that he does those sweet things for me to help me relax and make me feel amazing!! I love my husband very much and am so grateful for him!! He takes such good care of me. So glad that I get to spend eternity with him :)

*Crash*..*Boom*..*Bang*!!!!

  Well, this week started out as a great week with family enjoying the Easter holiday... To REALLY stressful. Most of you may know already but in case you were wondering, here's what happened..

  Monday, Cameron stayed home from work cause he wasn't feeling well. So during lunch I thought I'd stop by our house to see how he was doing. On my way back to lunch was when this all happened..

  I was driving west on ocotillo getting ready to turn south onto Ellsworth. There was a lot of traffic so I thought I would go around the traffic and get in the turning lane early. There's a circle k on the northeast corner and someone had stopped to let a lady pull out of there, with all the traffic I did not see the car stopped letting the other lady out and she didn't see me on the other side of that car either.

Our bumpers hit but mine got the bad end of the deal. Her front driver side looked like it had been in a typical 'fender bender'. Mine looked like it was hit head on going 50 on a freeway...

  My car had steam coming out of the engine and through my a/c, my radiator fluid was all over the road.. It was a mess!!

  I was still in shock for a while and Cameron was very sweet and calm about the whole thing

  My car was totaled and we spent the next day seeing what we could get for 3/4 of a car and looking for another.

  Lucky for me I actually knew the girl that hit me... She was a day student at my beauty school. She was a year older than me, and I knew she was LDS. Her husband showed up later like Cameron did, and they were very sweet and very understanding about the whole thing.

  It was a blessing in disguise, as weird as that sounds. I truly think it was :)

Time for change

Today Cameron and I had the opportunity to attend Stake Conference. We had some questions in our hearts and I had them answered in a way that I wasn't expecting. I quickly realized that I needed to allow Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ to guide Cameron and I in the direction we need to go in our lives. I received answers that I knew I needed but just didn't quite have that ah-ha moment yet. The spirit was able to speak to me through my faith and willingness, and through the power of the men who spoke today. My hearty is filled, and I plan to do all I can to imply those teachings in my life so I can teach my children and show them that I have a testimony of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I now have a better understanding of Heavenly Fathers plan for me and I know that if I do those things, to prepare to be a mother one day and to be a better wife to Cameron, that I will have the guidance and strength I need to endure it. I love the enthusiasm you feel when you receive revelation and you feel like you can take on the world. I want to feel like that all the time!  I had to share my love of my savior and the faith I have in him that he is preparing me to be a mother in zion :)